Day 3

Today I am thankful for Loira.
She was/is my mentor.
She is a friend.
She is a fellow blogger.
She is a sister in the Gospel.
She is a follower of Christ.
Most importantly she lives her testimony.

I kind of mentioned her in  a few posts last year, but she deserves more than that. She is worth more than that! :)

I love reading her blog. She is able to put thoughts and feelings into words perfectly. I have been blessed to know her for more than a year. She really has changed my life so much in this past year. I miss seeing her around the school. I miss feeling her care and love she has for me.

Loira is going on a mission and I know the people of Florida will be blessed. She will work miracles and many people will know her name for good. Really, they will be blessed. I look forwad to hearing about her adventures.

So, Loira, thank you. Thanks for being a mentor to me formally and informally. Thank you for inviting me to Play Theory. Thank you for being a listening year. Thank you for being a great example. Most importantly, thank you for sharing your testimony with me. My testimony has been strengthened because of you.

I hope to hear from you soon! Love you!!! :)

Thirty Days of Thanks Day Two

Yes, I didn't post yesterday. I wasn't close to a computer. So, I will have to do it today.
Today (Yesterday), I am thankful for boots. They matched my outfit perfectly!
:)

Thirty Days of Thanks Two

I can't believe that it has already been a year since I started doing my Thirty Days of Thanks. I have always been a bit different, so I decide to do my thankful posts the month of my birthday. Last year I noticed that when I am looking for things to be grateful for my life is better. It turns out that I have too many things to be thankful for. So, I decided to do it again this year.

I am so thankful for my job. I don't think I ever explained what my job was. I am an assistant to Louise Brown who is in charge of  Public Affairs for the LDS Business College.

This past August I asked if I could have a meeting with her to talk about Public Relations. I am looking at going into it for my profession. We had a great hour meeting and I told her I was looking for a new job. Well, a few days later she called to tell me about an opportunity at the Governor's office. I filled out the application and sent my resume to the Governor's office. Louise also asked me to bring my resume to her office. An hour after I gave my resume to her she asked me to come to her office. I was offered a position and I am very blessed.

I was hired to help with Program Advisory Boards. I call, email, and coordinate breakfast to meet with members who are influential and very successful in the area to come and mentor our academic programs. I also speak with the head of the academic programs frequently.  It has been a job that has pushed me out of my comfort zone. I am often given assignments that I have no idea what to do. I accept the assignment and hope it goes well. Luckily, I have been blessed to make it through all of them. I also help with the Employment Center. I work under Wyn Dunford, yes his family did start Dunford bread, and Arnie Allred, and Craig Nelson. There are other people I work with as well.

I am thankful that I have a job where I get to learn things daily. Before this job I was working in a parking booth. I am people-oriented and it killed me that I was not able to talk to people. I am very happy with my job. I am thankful that I get to continue to work at this job.

*Disclaimer: I do not have a laptop, so I might not be able to post everyday. I will try my best though.

The school is closing and I am still here!

I just spent six hours doing homework at the school. 

Yes, on a Saturday.

Now I get to go home and read for homework.

Then I get to come back to the school in the morning.

I have spent at least four to fourteen hours a day here since Monday, and I will do it again tomorrow.

College is as cool as they say.;)

However, I only have one more class before I get to go home for Thanksgiving Break.

Have I mentioned how much I love going home?

Or have I mentioned how much I like going to Provo?

I have become a bit obsessed with spending time with my family.

This is my first weekend in Salt Lake since September.

Crazy, huh?

Ooh I really do love it!

Have a safe and great night!

The school is closing and they are kicking me out!

BE HAPPY!
:)

Thankful Thursday

There are so many things to be grateful for, but don't worry I won't post all of them! ;)

1. Dan Ito. He is the man! He does not allow for his disability to get in the way of him living. Plus, I love hearing him talk about the second coming. What a glorious day for his family and all of us. I can't wait to see him stand on two strong legs! He is a spiritual giant and helps me be a bit better every time I see him. 

2. Angelynn and Joseph. They are so in love! Joseph was my teacher and co-teacher and Angelynn was my roommate, so I know them both pretty well. They have both become better versions of themselves while dating each other. I am so excited for them, and I know they agree when I say February can not come soon enough.

3. I am thankful for fun nights with my roommates! We did our makeup, dressed up, and danced the night away for Halloween! It was a blast and I sure love those girls.

4. I am thankful for my job. I work for one of the best ladies in the world. I seriously lucked out when it comes to bosses. I also lucked out with my job. I often an overwhelmed with the duties they give me. I have learned so much in the last two months and look forward to learning more in the next few months.

5. I am thankful for old friends and the time I have to meet up with them. I got to spend some time with one of my best friends, Lou Lou. We laughed at our high school memories, we were kind of cool and ridiculous at the same time. We caught up on our lives and I think we found out that we can still relate, even though we never see each other. 

6. I am thankful for music. I have a few new song obsessions. I suggest that everyone listens to the song below. I really love it. Like a lot. 

7. To go along with music, I am so thankful for dancing. Nothing like doing the running man, dishwasher, or shopping cart to really make happy.

8. I am thankful for Play Theory. I think I have finally learned to let go and just play. Everyone should know about Play Theory. 

9. I am thankful that I get to spend time with the some of the coolest brothers. I have been going to Provo quite a bit this semester to spend time with my brothers. I love it and I appreciate the time that they share with me. I know they both have a lot of friends and I am sure they have things to do. Yet, I never feel like a chore. I am so thankful they are my best friends!

10. I am thankful for perspective and optimism. Life is so much better when you put those two things together. I think it is the best medicine ever!!

Thankful Tuesday

I haven't done this in a very long time, and I need to change that.

Life is too good to not share!

1. My dad's job has great health insurance. I have been looking at a lot of different options and there are so many to choose from.

2. I have a job that I love and look forward to going to everyday.

3. I live with three beautiful ladies. I have learned so much from my roommates.

4. I have friends who look outward and look up.

5. I am receiving an education. Most of the world doesn't get to do that. How lucky am I?

6. I have a world full of possibilities.

7. I have free agency.

8. I get challenges  learning experiences that help me to grow.

9. I have an eternal family. WOO HOO!!  Nothing can take that from me.

10. Hot chocolate. I can't wait for my first batch.

11. I have treats from my mom. :)

12. I have an amazing family!

Value... You Have It!

Life is too good to me.

Multiple things happen daily that make me realize that my Heavenly Father is mindful of me.

How humbling is that?

I think he knows that I need to be reminded all of the time that I am worth more than I even know.

Especially when I am struggling or having an off day. 

Today in one of my classes I had to write a moral creed.

I know, I know, I must be at a Mormon school because I had an assignment like that.

Well, this assignment has been on my mind for the past few weeks.

What are my morals?

What are my values?

The latter question was a bit harder for me.

Not on the spiritual side, but on the physical and emotional side.

How do I value myself?

Now I know that is a weird question.

I thought for awhile what do I want need to put down.

I thought I would share a few of my ideas.(Oh, and I shaped my ideas from I will and I will not's)

I will not have a bad self-esteem.

I will look in the mirror daily and be happy with what I am looking at.

I will not look at someone else and wish I looked like them. 

I will take care of myself so I AM HAPPY with myself.

I will not think thoughts that are not good or uplifting.

I will do things that scare me.

I will not forget my goal, eternal life with the people I love.

I will be the person that others go to feel their burdens lifted.

I will not judge others.

I will remember others' worth.

I will not regret. (Read President Uchtdorf's talk on Regrets and Resolutions here)

A lot of these things will be hard.

I will do the best I can to apply these to my life.

I am a daughter to a Heavenly King.

I have endless potential.

Every daughter of God is beautiful and that includes me.

We all need to remember that we have value, even more than you think.

So, how do you think of yourself?

Think about it...

Now, how does Heavenly Father think about you.

I think it would do us all good if we line our thoughts up with Heavenly Father.

Value, remember that you have it!

She's back

Have I mentioned that Crysta is back?
Yes, like my best friend, Crysta from my freshman year.
I am with her right now.
Which means I am going to sign off and go spend time with her.
:)

Fourteen Hour Days

Oh goodness, days are so long.

I love my job.

I love the people I work with.

I love my classes.

I love the subjects I am taking.

I love my teachers.

I am so in love with my schedule and I really am looking forward to this semester.

However, fourteen hour days are going to kill me.

I got to the school on Tuesday at 7:30a.m. and I didn't get home until 10:15 p.m.

Wednesday is kind of similar.

On Thursday I don't have to come  in until eleven, but still I get home around 10:00p.m.

At least I only have nine hour days on Monday.

Oh, and Friday I don't have any classed.

I have a feeling I will be spending my weekends doing homework.

My favorite thing to do right now is go to sleep by ten and wake up at six.

What college kid goes to bed at ten?

I do! And I love it too!

Last night I stayed up until two.

Don't worry I wasn't partying.

I was actually studying.

I have become 'that girl.'

You know the one that sits at home and studies. :)

I really like it too.

I actually understand things now.

My parents are right, studying actually pays off and I should have been doing it all along.

Yes parents, you are right, I admit it!

Time to go to class and then more homework!

Listen to great music and breathe.

Life is great! 

Gone!

That's right!

I got rid of facebook.

It won't be for very long, but I need a break!

It feels so good!

Moving Day!!!

I am moving!

I am ready for change.

I love new opportunities.

I'll try to post pictures when everything is set up. 

Oh goodness, I am so excited!

Happy hump day and enjoy this great song!

XOXO

Hannah

One Year (First half)

Oh goodness, I can NOT believe that it has been a full year.

 What am I talking about?

Well, I have been in Utah for a whole year.

A year ago my parents left me on the front porch of the Bytheway house and I was terrified.

Don't worry, I was excited as well as terrified.

The past few days I have been contemplating everything that has happened and really thinking about all of the lessons I have learned.

A year ago I thought that I had a strong testimony.

I thought that I knew how to do everything.

I was confident and ready to conquer the world.

I needed to be humbled, and boy, was I humbled!

I remember watching Boys Meet World and being excited for that college experience.

Well, my experience has been better that!

This past year I have learned how to cook.

Yesterday I cooked a mean steak to celebrate the one year mark and it was divine.

Today I had stir fry and rice.

I have a better idea of what I need to do to eat healthy.

I realize the importance of being in shape and how it helps me to be a better person.

I've learned how to study.

Now, I am far from perfect, but I am proud of how my grades have turned out.

I have learned that working is hard.

Forty hour work weeks are really hard but make me feel accomplished.

I am not meant to be a paralegal or social services counselor.

I am going to do something with Public Relations and international government.

It will be hard but I can do it.

I can wink now too!

Yes, I now have the physical ability to woo men! ;)

I've also had a lesson that I am terribly awkward on dates.

Not even a wink can make up for some of my awkward dates.

 Speaking of dating, I have been blessed to have great guys come into my life!

I am so thankful for the priesthood.

I can't wait to live in a house where the priesthood is always availbale.

Ladies who are moving out for college soon, make sure that you become friends with guys who are worthy to give you priesthood blessings.

Men, be worthy to give priesthood blessings.

Family is so important!

The Plan of Salvation is one of the greatest things about this gospel.

This past year, I had two people pass away that I really care about.

I am thankful that I can talk about them in present care because they are very much alive.

Family will always be there.

Everyone remember that and you will be happy.

(I just received a picture of my dad at dinner and I really do miss them!)

Friends, roommates, and sweethearts are very important! 

You will become like the people you spend the most time with.

So, make sure they are good ones.

The temple is great!

It represents everything I believe in.

It is pure, beautiful, and everlasting.

Everyone can be comforted and receive answers by visiting the temple.

I have not fully used the temple and I regret that.

Go to the temple!

Just because you move away doesn't mean you can't stay close to the people back home!

Most importantly, I know the church is true.
I know the Gospel is true.

I know that we are never alone.

Get down on your knees and miracles will happen!

Read your scriptures to receive answers.
I know that Joseph Smith restored the Gospel.

I know that we have a prophet on the earth today and if we follow him we will not be led astray.

I know that I have endless potential.

Through the Gospel I can do anything!

I look forward to this next year.

Life is good!

Life is great!

Life is wonderful!

I am ready for Fall.

 I love, love the hot  warm weather. This summer has been interesting. I've had people I really care about pass away. Roommate experiences that I am thankful for but I don't really want to go through again. Said good bye to people as they have moved on in their life.

Quick little sidenote: One of the hardest things about going to the BC is that everyone is here for a short amount of time. I know that is how everything is as we get older. I just think it's more extreme at the BC.

I am ready for the leaves to change colors. I am ready for rich fall colors.  To wear jackets and layers. I am ready for fall fashionsI am ready for the overcast days. I am ready for crisp, cool air. I am ready for sweatshirts. I am ready for cool nights followed by hot chocolate. I am ready for fall hikes. 

It's time for a change. Yes, I am more than ready for fall. 

New Job! :)

That's right folks, I got  a new job.
I will be working part time at the school for some of the best people at the school.
I am so excited for the new challenges that will come with this new job.
Oh, and I get to leave the parking job.
More information later... maybe.

I love.....

I love living in Downtown Salt Lake.
I love that I am a short walk away from the Salt Lake Temple.
I love that I get to walk through temple square on the way home from work.
I love that I've lived here for ten months and I've never been harmed.

I love music.
I love how almost every memory I have goes along with music.
I love my Pandora stations.
I love Imagine Dragons, even though it reminds me of a hard time in my life.
I love the memory I have of my Grandpa Chelson singing, "You Are My Sunshine."
I love that music has been instilled in my life since I was young.

I love my roommates.
I love that most of my learning and growing experiences have come from my twelve great roommates.
I love that I can stay in touch with them, even though most of them live hundreds of miles away.
I love that I get to live with Erin, Alix, and Kierstin at the beginning of September.

I love Utah weather.
I love the hot weather.
I love that it rains and I can walk outside and still be cool.
I love the sun.

I love Pioneer Day.
I love that even though  I live four hours away from home I still get to celebrate it.
I love the reminders I get of my church heritage.
I love that there is always a general authority in the Salt Lake City Parade.
I love that I don't have to work that morning.

I love my family.
I love that I will have three of my brothers living close to me in a month and a day.
I love that they support me in everything I do.
I love that I have the BEST family in the world.
I love that they are going to come and live in Utah and by me food from Sam's Club.

I love that the heart heals.
I love that people come into my life when I need them.
I love that some people leave my life when I need them to. :)
I love that I have the greatest people in my life right now.

I love laughing.
I love winking.
I love snapping.
I love talking to people who care for me.
I love that I have only sent out and received eight texts the past two days.

I love that there is so much to love in my life!

Too funny!

Summer:)

I love, love summer. 

I've been on summer break for more than two months!

Oh, and I still have more than two months left.

You have to love being a college student.

I realized recently that the past few months I stopped blogging about my daily happenings.

Why?

I have no idea!

So, what's going on in my life?

Ahh let me tell you.

I got a job!

Yes, I am an adult who can pay her bills now.

I am extremely blessed to work for a great company.

My hours don't really allow for me to have a social life, but I don't really need that!

I am the Mentor Public Relations co-chair.

I am currently working on a challenging, and time consuming project, but I love it.

I teach two classes at the college.

I am a coordinator for a class at the college.

I go to hockey games every Wednesday night.

Sometimes, when I don't work, I go to volleyball games.
I have late night chats with Kierstin about life.
I listen to fun summer melodies on my iPod as much as possible.
Some days I have no plans and I don't get ready all day.
I also go home to Idaho...a lot.
My biggest regret of this summer is that I have not taken any pictures.
That's actually my regret of this past year.
I have taken close to ten pictures.
I really hate pictures.
I really love memories.
I guess it's time to take some pictures of those memories.
Kierstin are you happy?

I'm happy.
The Beach Boys radio is playing on my Pandora station right now.
Summer is great!!:)

Disneyland, a birthday, and a little bit of father's day

I really need to get internet AND a laptop so I can post more often!

This past week was a blast.

I got to go to Disneyland!

I always forget how much I love it there and then I walk in the entrance and I get all giddy.

The weather was nice, my family is great, and hopefully I can post more on the trip later.

I got back from California on Thursday. (We decided to fly instead of drive. Great idea!)

I got to babysit one of my favorite families, the Lokey's, that night.

Then, on Friday morning I got my wisdom teeth taken out.

About an hour or two after coming home from the dentist I left for Utah.

Honestly, I am shocked at how little of pain I am actually in.

The drive was great and I even slept for  a bit.

Yesterday was Kierstin's birthday and I spent the day medicating, icing, sleeping, and eating soft foods.

That's all I ever do.

Last night we went to Braden's house and I had half of a hamburger bun. (Yes, I was walking on the wild side.)

We watched Tarzan too.

I love Tarzan.

It was a great day.

Today I am still icing, sleeping, medicating, swelling, and eating soft foods.

I think we might have some of the two cakes that Kierstin has left from her birthday.

The real reason to celebrate today is my daddy!

It's fathers day!!!

 I love my daddy so much.

He is the greatest guy I know.

There is so much I can say about him but I think I'll keep it to myself.

I love you daddy!

Thank you for being the best example and always loving me!

Have a great day!!

Love your boonie!

Time to go ice and gurgle salt water.

Ta ta for now!

Disneyland

The bags are almost packed.
All of the family is together again.
No work for a whole week.
Ahhh I can't wait.
Disneyland here I come!
California here I come!

Yes, I will be singing this tomorrow around 10:30 in California.
Life is great!

Yes and....

My life is crazy!

Too many places to be at once.

Foundations of Learning stewarship interviews.

Reading assignments for Foundations of Learning.
Grading assignments for Foundations of Learning.

Play theory meetings.

Play theory lessons.

Mentor public relations assignments and fundraisers.

I need to meet with one of my students who really need me.

Mentor public relations meetings.

Oh, and I start work today.
Ahh!!!! I am going to go crazy!

I think I might have said yes and way too much.

Breathe in and breathe out.

That's what I'll do!

Home

I love Idaho.

I love family.

I love talking.

I love holding babies.

I love being around people who love me.

I love laughing.

I love being a duckling behind my mommy.

I love rain.

I love being fed great food.

What I love the most is that I have all of these things at home. 

I'm so glad that I've had the chance to go home so much this past month.

I always feel better after going home.

I'll be back soon Idaho!

Only a week and a half until Disneyland! 

Did I mention how much I love my life?

Dear Shay,

You are great! I would be a sister wife with you any day!

xoxo

Hannah :)

100th Post!!

Now, this is a big deal.

I'm on my 100th post.

I was comparing my first posts to some of the more recent ones and I was amazed.

I've changed a lot.

I've had a lot of highs and I've had some lows.

This blog has been therapeutic and highly rewarding.

However, that's not what I wanted to write about on my 100th post!

I want to write about my mommy.

I was able to be at home with my mom for Mother's day.

My mom is the best.

She is caring.

She is funny.

She is loyal.

She loves me and my siblings.

She spills food on her shirt sometimes.

She works hard so my sister and I can get expensive mascara. :)
She makes sure that we always look presentable.

She has a great laugh and smile.

She raised me to be strong in my testimony and firm in my beliefs.

She converted to the Gospel even when it wasn't easy.

She puts my needs above her own.

She pays for my hair to get colored.

She is brilliant.

She is a great listener.

She gets excited about the good things in my life.

She comforts me over the sad things  in my life.

She is a testimony builder.

She is great at giving advice.

She is  close to the spirit.

She has loving eyes.

She sees the good in everyone, especially the rotten kids.

She sees potential in people and helps them get there.

These are just a few good things about my mom.

I love my mommy! 

I get to see her soon and I can't wait.

Disneyland will be a blast with my mom.

Mmmm...

Tonight I had a chance to jump on the tramp.

Last summer I spent my days on the tramp.

I love, love it!

Tonight was a clear night in St. Anthony.

(Oh yeah, I'm back in St. Anthony for a week. More stories about my trip later!)

There was a minor breeze, I was wearing my sweatshirt so I was pretty warm!

The start were twinkling.

I can't see the stars in Salt Lake and I didn't realize how much I actually missed them.

It smelled like freshly mowed grass.

I've grown accustomed to the smell of Salt Lake and I am down right horrified.

Idaho smells so good and I'm going to miss the smell of fresh and clean outside air!

Another thing I like about Idaho?

It is quiet.

You can think here, without an interruption of a siren or other noises. 

I listened to fun tunes and just let my thoughts wander.

The smell, tramp, stars, and breeze all remind me of why I like St. Anthony.

St. Anthony is my HOME.

It's good to be home.

Enjoy one of my new favorite songs!

Oh, I'm going to Disneyland in a month and twelve hours!
I can't wait.
The countdown starts now!

Moving

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Goodbye internet connection!

Do not augment!

I can't believe it has been a week!

Life has been fun and eventful this past week.

I've played volleyball.

Hung out with Ang, Braden, and Mark daily.

Kierstin came home.

I went home!

Yes, that's right!

I had a chance to go home and surprise my mommy.

I have not been home in four months and it was time for a trip home.

I love going home and being loved.

I had great talks with my family.

We laughed, talked, and ate a lot.

Friday night we got home pretty late.

Emily got asked to prom. (I know, it's so weird that she is old enough to go.)

I had ice cream.

We stayed up late talking and I went to bed with a happy heart.

Saturday we went shopping, to a concert, Distinguished Young Women, and talked some more.

It was a very long and full day.

It was so nice to be with my family.

On Sunday I had a chance to go to my home ward.

It was so nice to see everyone that I have grown up with.

I think I really do have the best home ward.

Everyone genuinely cares for how I am doing and cares for me!

I had a chance to hold a baby and put him to sleep.

I really do miss that.

I had a great dinner.

I went shopping in my house. (That's one of my favorite things to do when I go home, :) )

I helped my mom with her blog. 

I jumped on the tramp with Brigham.

Which brings back a lot of memories from last summer.

The drive back to Utah with Porter and Brandon was a blast.

I am a blessed girl.

This was a little bit of my life this past week.

I love Summer.

I love warmth.

I love smiling and happiness.

Life is so grand!

Oh boy! ;)

Oh baby!

What a winner.

Sign me up!

This scene just gives me the giggles!

There's Always Good, but Sometimes I Don't See It

Today I got to have a chat with two lovely ladies.

I've mentioned Angelynn(whom I love alot) before but I've never mentioned Paige.

She's a beautiful person, on the inside and the outside.

The past month I was feeling down.

My heart felt like it was being put in a blender.

Well, after a chat on Sunday and a few realizations I started to feel better.

I really am doing good, but after today I am doing great.

Paige gave me a new outlook on life and I realized that I do deserve better.

I am a daughter of God and I deserve to be treated like a princess.

I can't make someone see my point of view or make them change theirs.

I realized that good things can be worked out but only if both people are willing to work.

It's funny she didn't say some of these things, but I still learned these lessons from her.

I learned a lot of other lessons as well.

I wish I could have had a pen to write down everything Paige said.

She was almost in the exact situation as me but just on the opposite side.

Her insight was amazing and I needed to hear her story.

She is an answered prayer.

As much as I still want things to work out I am moving on.

So how am I doing that?

I have been on two dates this week and I might have one on Saturday.

I loved my "date" on Tuesday, but that's because  I was babysitting.

Give me a kid on a date and I will happy!

Now my second date was not my favorite date.

I learned a lot of things.

For instance, I do not like squid or shrimp.

I never want to go on a date when someone spends all of that money on me.

I am not a public person.

I will not hold a boys' hand if I do not like them.

It's alright to tell a boy that you just got out of a relationship and you are not interested.

I never thought I would have to do anything like that.

One of the biggest lessons I learned  is that it's alright to be sad and still want.

However, I do need to move on and give other people a chance.

My relationship with my Heavenly Father and savior is the most important relationship.

I am going to focus on that and being a better disciple of Christ.

I am going to focus on finishing up the healing process.

I think Paige was the disinfectant and gauze I needed for my bullet wound.

Now I just need the scar to come.

Terrible analogy?

Probably! :)

Tonight I am HAPPY, HEALING, and THANKFUL.

Life is good!!

Look for the good everyday, and I think we will all be shocked.

Thankful Thursday... Friday

Oh dear, I have not done a post like this in ages.

I decided it was time to do one.

1. I'm done with my freshman year of college! 

I did it and I am ready for a break.

It was a very long semester.

2. I'm thankful for opportunities.

I had a chance to sing for Elder Holland and Elder Christofferson.

One of the greatest experiences.

3.  LDS Business College.

It has helped shape my future.

4. Play Theory.

The principles are amazing!

5. The chances I have to make decisions.

I've had to make some big ones and I might write about them soon.

6. Book of Mormon.

I finished it again this last week.

It's one of my favorite books.

7. Sincere Prayer with a Heavenly Father who loves me.

8. Chats with my Daddy, Mommy, and family.

They are great.

(Shoot mom I just realized I forgot to call you back. I'll remember tomorrow or Sunday)

9. Jello

10. My testimony.

I have a lot to work on, but I hope I am improving.

I need to do this more often.

I do not appreciate things like I should.

Oh, and three posts in one day?

Yes, I am that good! 

Words

Happy                           content                            Blessed                          
                           unsure                        confused        
Impatient               awkward                        anxious                          
            satisfied                                free and easy            hesitant                                           

Befuddled                            relaxed                                                                      

Thrilled                 nervous               inquisitive                                   optimistic      dismayed                                         passionate          weary                                                     attracted                                   touched                    discouraged                        

                       admiration                            devoted        reserved                  hopeful                                     

It's kind of tiring having all of these feelings in one day.

Life can be a thrilling roller coaster sometimes.

Right now I feel Anxious.

Hair...

Sometimes I decide to do my hair.

I really love days when it works out for me.

It kind of worked out today!

Oh, and thanks for the hat mom.

I put this picture on facebook and I remembered that you didn't have one.

So, here you go!!!

In this next picture I am not sad.

Well, I am sad my roommates are leaving and I made the face for them.

I am happy!!!

See happy!!! 

  

Happy Easter!

I'm very excited for today.

This is technically my first holiday away from home.

I don't have candy in an easter basket.
I guess the Easter bunny doesn't like college kids! ;)

I'm not having ham or funeral mashed potatoes.

I am not going to be with my family, but that's just for today.

I will be with my family forever.

I am excited to hear from President Richards.

He is an amazing man.

I am sure I will hear an amazing message about Easter from him.

Which isn't hard because the Easter's message is amazing and very humbling.


Although Easter in the house is just not the same as it is back home with all the excitement of eggs and baskets, one thing is the same no matter where we are in the world or what stage of life we are in. We have a loving Savior who atoned for our sins and felt our pains. He was ressurected and lives again making it possible for us to live with our Father in Heaven again. I am so thankful for Him. 


I hope everyone has a great Easter!

I love you mom, dad, and family! 

Eat some candy for me.

In the mean time, here is a great message from another amazing man.

I love Elder Wirthlin and I miss him so much. 

I'm thankful to know where he is at.

Happy Easter!

Matters of the Heart

"No one can go back and make a new beginning, but anyone can start from now and make a happy ending."

I am in a reflective mood.

Tonight was going to be great, well it was great.

I worked on homework all day and I was going to have a relaxing evening.

I did have a relaxing evening.

I had a chance to watch Remember the Titans.

I really love that movie.

Then I played Ultimate Frisbee with my roommates.

Some of the rules were broken and I hate that.

It left me in a bit of a sour mood.

I realized I was being a party pooper and I tried to improve my attitude.

I feel like I did a pretty good job.

What do those last sentences have to with the matters of the heart and a reflective mood?

Nothing, but I just wanted my family and friends to know that I do have fun times and I'm not sad. 

These past few weeks, even months I've had a chance to be a part of great discussions.

Discussions that have helped me grow, think, and become a better person.

I use to be scared and I did not like these conversations.

Now, all I want to do is have those.

I always get in these moods after discussions.

Put on a smiley face and act as if nothing is wrong.

Why?

Because that's what I talk about in my discussions.

However, there is something wrong.

I realized I often say things in conversations with people, that I don't necessarily believe.

I know what I'm expected to say.

I hate to disappoint so I go with what my mind and what people expect me to say.

Forget about what my heart thinks.

Then I act the way my mind says I am suppose to.

Put a smile on.

Everything will be alright.

Yes, everything will be alright.

Sometimes I really do believe my mind and think nothing is wrong, but than I remember.

My heart does hurt and it's allowed to hurt.

I was made that way.

I have trials, challenges, AND blessings come into my life to learn and be hurt from.

I am a girl.

One day I will be a mom to a little girl who will need to hear my experiences.

I hope I will be able to help her like my mom helps me.

I am part of the Mentors & Ambassadors program.

In the Code of service it says something along the lines of not getting in heaven's way.

I know I said I was getting the way, but what if I am wrong.

What if it's not me who is getting in the way?

That's not a good thought.

I don't know if I was getting in heaven's way.

What if everyone else is?

I know I let you go, but that doesn't mean I wanted to.

I'm thankful that I know everything will work out for me.

It's hard to know that a lot of my future decisions rely on others and that they might not choose me.

I feel like I am suppose to be part of all of these different experiences, but what if others don't think so.

The matters of the heart and mind are confusing.